I dreamed of grown up moments

and now

I wish I were just a child again

when all I knew was innocence…

when I could cry as loud as I wanted

when I would stand on a chair

only to sing an unclear song

and still my little mates would clap their hands

when all I could draw were

a cloud, a mountain, a house, a coconut tree

and a butterfly bigger than the tree

and got the whole praise for that

when I would run in the rain -

naked without being ashamed

when I could just being lazy the whole day

and still foods will be served there

childhood…

when no awareness required

when understandings was not of concern

0h wait a sec…

I can see the difference

in there, I wasn’t aware that it was love

I didn’t know that I was living a life

I didn’t understand that it was me

yea…

I like the now

I like this time

right now

though I need to struggle for certificates

rite… also for knowledge and friendships - of course (hah!)

though I need to think of going to work

to maintain Rupiah in my pocket ($$$)

though I’m aware of my demanding needs

and try to find ways to fulfill them

I can see me now on the way

of searching and living

though I don’t understand all things

I don’t have to understand everything anyway…

I begin to know what love is

what to love and being loved is

maybe it is all (K’U)